…just bullshit anyway. It might just not be if only I could find a small measure of happiness, a small measure of peace… a home, somewhere to belong… but no. It eludes me, even after looking me right in the face with the promise of staying, it still eludes me. So whatever things are or could be, whatever they might or might not be… it’s all bullshit anyway and my faith, or should I say the faith I once had, is long gone and all is nothing but hollow. I’m fading… God knows, whether she exists or not, that I tried and in a small way still keep trying but the once effulgent colors who danced in the sun are now gray and faded as they lay shattered in the shadows of unfulfilled dreams whispering a silent prayer for help. I am nothing but ashes where I once was fire. It is so strange. What chains has tied my hands and feet? What force keeps me prisoner to this world of despair? How did they get here? How do I escape? I am but a microscopic drop in an ocean of time. The world will not miss me but I guess I’ll miss the world. I know I do now. I see the storm coming… and I can but watch it arise as the ground crumbles beneath my trembling feet.
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Do not loose track of how wonderful things can be in the near future darling! What feels so hopeless now can change in a second! I know love is tuff, life is tuff, hell this path is never ending of branches trying to trip you on the way! This is when faith inside of you needs to be strong! I know what you mean – I have been waiting 401 days and 6 hours for a man who gave his promise. 15 august is the final wait for me, but love fades and who knows I might leave this path for something else. I have cried but now I have hope, faith and trust in life that if I keep positive things will go my way – either it be him or someone else – maybe even being by my self… Let’s give this evening a positive start!