…and life beats you so bad you don’t recognize yourself. When the past haunts you and the uncertain future tortures the hell of the present… What do you do? Who do you turn to?
When the heart refuses to see what the mind already knows, when the spirit fights the soul and your body dissolves to a mere vessel of imprisoned time…
When you stand with the prison bars in front if you screaming for freedom, not being capable to realize the cell has neither walls nor ceiling yet you’re still trapped.
When you stray so far from your path you’re completely lost and every night before you fall asleep an angel of death sits down besides you and smiles saying -Maybe we’ll see each other soon…
When your mind plays evil tricks, making you turn away from everything and everyone…
Where do you find salvation? Where do you find peace? How do I save myself from drowning? Can barely breath now…
What do you do when everything falls apart?
When things fall apart, take a deep breath, look at the angel of death and say “I’m not afraid of you, I’m not afraid of anything”. Accept your feelings without acting upon them, observe, breathe them in, breathe them out. It’s OK to be in the darkest of dark sometimes, accepting that makes it less scary, accepting it fully makes it go away. Without the dark, there can be no light, no way up and out. And you will find the ray of sunshine in the darkness, but you need to accept it is there…always. Be grateful to just BE, without expectations or demands upon what life needs to be, or love needs to be, if you let go of all you think you need to be alive and be happy – you might just find happiness, love and balance right where you ARE…even in the dark…
Much love!