…do you allow you words to stab me as they do?
Why?
Why can’t you see you’re hurting me?
Why do you expect me to always be at your call yet when the tears falls from my eyes I somehow find myself alone? Why can’t you dry my eyes with love as as I do for you when you’re sad?
Why do you so vividly tell me about things from your past when I wasn’t the one who was part of it and yet expect me to rejoice those memories when you clearly should understand they hurt? Why can’t you see I hurt when you compare me to others giving them titles that once where only mine? Why do you amputate the sense of uniqueness in my heart?
Why can’t you understand my longing for you and that you would hurt too if I did to you as you do to me?
What is there left for me to give that I haven’t already offered to you? What do I lack that you so desperately seek and can not find in me? I’m standing right here… Why can’t you see I’m standing right in front of you, waiting for your slightest gesture… a smile… a word of love… a tender caress..? Why can’t you long for the world I lay at your feet, my devoted soul and many years from now, the marvel of seeing our old and withered hands still entwined?
Why can’t you see that I’m waiting for all those things in vain…
I’m building a castle with walls of despair surrounding my every forged smile yet how easy those walls would crumble in the plain sight of your now absent true love.
What will be of me when you no longer need me? What will I do when the night falls and the loneliness visits my dreams and steals my hopes? Who will I turn to then… when it’s far too late… who, when it can’t be you?
Why can’t you just let me go?
Why do you drag me back again with your beautiful smile you know I can’t live without?
Why do you give me hope when you know our ship has sailed?
Let me go.
I’m drowning… silently screaming out my pain…let me go…
Please… love me now while I’m still here…